I'm tired

I'm engaged, or almost engaged. My boyfriend/fiancee has been sick, though so we can't afford a ring. He just got out of the hospital and he won't be able to work for about another week. Here's what it's been like...

We met and fell in love. We met on myspace... funny eh? He was planning to move to where I live to go to school, was looking for roommates, and decided to flirt with the cute girls up here. I pretty much ignored him until after he moved up here. We talked a bit online, but nothing much. When he moved up here, it took us a while to meet. But after we did, we really hit it off. He fell first, expressing his love for me much before I was ready to do the same. He does wonderful things for me like driving over to my place to scrape the ice off my car windows, building me beautiful things, and even cleaning my house when I'm gone.

Things progressed well between us, but he had difficulty finding a job. It was stressful. I make plenty of money to support myself, but he was having a hard time in a new town. It just about drove me away. But, he did finally find a good job but then he got sick. Lucky for us, his new employer is flexible and understanding. The job is still there, it's just going to be a couple of weeks until he can get back to it. I know it will pass, but this really seems difficult at times.

I've been there through this while thing, hoping and praying that it will subside and we will be able to move on. He wants to be healthy and working again before he asks my dad for my hand. I want him healthy too... Most couples don't go through this kind of stress until they've been married a while. I do believe, though, that he'll come through this and we will both be happier and stronger for it. And if he doesn't, then, we'll deal with that as it happens. I'm trusting the lord here, having faith that our prayers will be answered. Having faith, btw, is much harder than it sounds.